Thursday, July 8, 2010

no soliciting!

If you are a doctor or clinic or whatever, please refrain from leaving me comments. I will just trash them. I have a doctor who's opinion I respect, and he is completely familiar with my medical history. Please don't waste your time and mine.

Thank you.

the power of positive thinking

Ok, so, I keep getting asked "what will you do it if doesn't work?"

C'mon people, give me a break.

It IS going to work, I've come to far for it not to.

And what kind of thinking is that anyway? What answer are you expecting me to give you?

Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

I want it to work, I'm hoping for the best. I just really don't have the time or energy to prepare for the worst, to worry about what if it doesn't work, that just isn't productive for me.

The power of positive thinking.
The power of prayer.

Please, stop asking.
It doesn't help me to force me to think about that.

I remain hopeful.
I remain positive.

eleven years

Eleven years. In August, it will be eleven years that we have been trying to have a family.

1 billion clomid cycles
2 IUIs
5 med-only cycles
3 miscarriages
2 years of trying to adopt

I can't help but think about how my life is about to change. Most of my friends have only known Julie-trying-to-have-a-family. They don't know me any other way.

I've forgotten what normal Julie is like. Eleven years is a long time.

And now I wonder what it will be like to live my life not trying to have a family.

What will it be like to actually have what I've waited eleven years for. What will I be like. I will have a child to totally focus my attention on, so I will have something to do with all the energy and time I've been spending trying to have a family.

There is big change ahead, and I'm excited. I'm ready to get on with my life!